Hello lovely readers, how are you doing today? How was your fourth of July?
Do you ever feel the very distinct need to say "great!" even if that's not true? I am apalled at how often I lie to even the closest people in my life about how I'm really doing. I suppose I fear that if I'm truly transparent and honest, that maybe I'll just sound like a "downer" or like a broken record. I will confess that sometimes I feel embarrassed that I still haven't conquered some of those bad habits that hold me back....
Do you ever feel like middle school still haunts you? Sometimes I long to go back in time and remind my little self not to believe all those lies society started feeding me at 12. The standards are so high for women these days aren't they? According to what I see on TV and in publications, we are suppose to be skinny (first and foremost), sexy, successful, amazing mothers, amazing wives and YET as low maintenance as possible.
The greatest compliment that I hear people throw out regarding women is "ya she's super easy to be around, like a dude!" or "she's so down to earth and mellow...and so pretty!" Really? GREAT! I'm not feeling very mellow or nice right about now. In FACT, I feel manic! (Nice to meet you by the way).
I love this quote by Jack Kerouc:
“I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till i drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.”
I have a really good life and a lot more spare time than many. Yet, I still feel like I miss the mark most days. Maybe that's where the beauty lies... in the imperfect "try". It feels like everyday I'm running to catch a train....and miss it. Even yet, I guess the thing to do is just keep buying a ticket! I may still have all those old insecurities locked inside me, but I know it won't be that way forever. It's just one step at a time...because "It always seems impossible until it's done".
What is your "impossible" right now? What are you seeking to overcome or what dream are you chasing? What do you do when you start to feel foggy or confused....maybe just tired? Share in the comment section below....I'd love to hear your thoughts!
And, as always....I hope you are having a great week!
